11) When people encounter things like this, a sentence is likely to be popped up, “Why it is me? ”
Dae: I was so careless at that time and I can not figure out why this happened to me even until now. As time passed, when the incident was approaching to its end, then I realized why. When I was taking a rest, I seized the time to reread some chapters of bible and reflect about my position in my religion. I think it is because God wanted to grant me such a time for so he arranged this incident for me.
12) You have been working under the lime light for a long time but now you have been in hiatus for several months, aren’t you bored?
Dae: I certainly want to sing but I do not have the confidence to carry out the activities with happy smiles nowadays. I am not bored to show you what I really feel now. Up ‘til now, I still think that the time that I spend at church is the best time. Home —> Church; Church —> Home, I think this is the best cycle for me.
13) How are you feeling now?
Dae: As time passes, I don’t feel panic anymore since I know that I have the talent and the mission that I must accomplish. I am getting myself ready for the restart of my journey gradually.
14) Concerning ‘the mission that you must complete’, are you still holding the same belief as what you held before the accident?
Dae: The accident just granted me some time to reflect upon my belief and I am now even more sure of what I believe in. I am praised because of my voice and I am gifted with it. It is really my pleasure to be gifted like this. Moreover, my profession enables me to preach my belief to the people everywhere. I want to utilize this opportunity most.
15) After the incident, the overseer of the church have been helping you. Do you still see each other now?
Dae: Yes, we still see each other very often now. I will discuss the matters with him no matter they are big or small. After the accident, I will pray to God before I draft and carry out my schedule. In fact, we were going to a trip on the following day which the accident took place and it would be the 1st vacation after we had come back. After that incident, I discovered that I had not prayed to God before making the decision of going to that trip. No, not only for that trip, the same principle applies to all situations. That’s why I think it happened all because of my faults.
16) It is really great that you have such a mindset. So, do you thank God for this too?
Dae: I thank God very much. If it were not that accident, I would have walked a few steps forward on the secular world but I would never have gotten the chance to understand and restart my life thoroughly. I seized the chance to reflect on the things that happened on me in that period of time. After the reflection, I understand why I have to experience it now. I thank God for granting me such a chance. On the other hand, I am also reminded that I should always be alert to everything.
17) When you are tired, what would you say to your parents?
Dae: I will tell them not to worry about me. When I was staying in the dorm alone for the first 3-4 days after the accident, my mom came and visited me. However, I did not really want to see anybody so my mom was mad at me. They have accepted everything and have been supporting me until now. I feel that I have owed them and I am really thankful for having them by my side. They will just be mad at me if I am not behaving reasonably.
18) I heard that you have invited G-dragon to go to church with you?
Dae: I think it is because of me that he went to church. G-Dragon hyung expressed his desire to go to church to the manager. Originally hyung wanted to go to other churches and it had been a long time since he had gone to church. Therefore, I asked him when he would come back to church, he said it was quite tiring to go there after carrying out his activities. Then I tried to figure out how I can let G-Dragon relax and come back to church. I then took the initiative to invite him to church. In fact, originally we are not allowed to pray at out church at that period of time but ultimately the church allowed us to do so.
19) So you two are close to each other?
We five are very close to one another. Since G-Dragon hyung is the leader of the team, he can understand my situation more easily.
20) However, why did he go to your church?
Dae: Yes, I always do so. Either I stay at my dorm or I will go to church. Maybe he is curious about what kind of church I am going to. The composers of my company also go to my church and he might be influenced by them, too. When G-Dragon hyung came, I was reading bible and the church was still under renovation at that time. G-Dragon hyung said, “It is okay,” and then he bursted into laughters. I had never thought that he would come and what we were singing at that time was “I love Jesus”. We were finishing the service when we were saying, “I love Jesus”. When the overseer was preaching, I was jotting down the notes very seriously. G-dragon hyung, who was sitting next to me said, “I cannot really hear what he is saying very clearly.” I thought it was common among the first-time comer so I explained some of the content for him. After that service, he found it was a really good experience. Therefore, he came again next time and greeted the overseer. On our way home, I asked him how he felt about the meeting. He said when he looked straight into the eyes of the overseer, it was just like the senior knew what he was thinking about and it was a great feeling.
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